No this isn't an ode to Green Day's Boulevard of Broken Dreams. Although it might be whinier than it.
For the past while I've had this feeling/sense that I'm walking alone. Life is passing by and we are changing, being moulded constantly by the Hands of the Creator. Life with Him can only get more beautiful. Just as He was creating the Earth, He kept adding more and more until He was satisfied. He took a plain large psuedo-circular rock and added bodies of water, vegetation, animals, and mankind (roughly in that order), making our beautiful home we now live on. He creates perfection.
I started experiencing this feeling in January, after leaving my family and friends behind to come to ND. Originally I thought that was why I felt so alone. But really, it doesn't matter. If this is something we are going through, then no matter who is with us, no matter what we are doing, we will still feel alone.
To make matters "sucky-er," God has been hiding His face from me.
My initial response: "Oh poor me!!!" (It's a bummer right??)
I'm joyfully embracing this period of my life for the first time! I want to bless the Lord and praise Him so much more. I want to chase after Him, capture His heart. Lord You have my heart, and I will search for Yours. I need to feel alone to realize that He is the only One who can satisfy my heart's desires. No person, no material, no activity, etc... NOTHING can satisfy. I knew this very well... but now it's time to understand it on a deeper level.
I need to feel alone in order that I may be united with Him. That I might understand Him and His desires, feel His thirst for souls, dive into the depths of His River!
Praise the Lord for that!
For the past while I've had this feeling/sense that I'm walking alone. Life is passing by and we are changing, being moulded constantly by the Hands of the Creator. Life with Him can only get more beautiful. Just as He was creating the Earth, He kept adding more and more until He was satisfied. He took a plain large psuedo-circular rock and added bodies of water, vegetation, animals, and mankind (roughly in that order), making our beautiful home we now live on. He creates perfection.
I started experiencing this feeling in January, after leaving my family and friends behind to come to ND. Originally I thought that was why I felt so alone. But really, it doesn't matter. If this is something we are going through, then no matter who is with us, no matter what we are doing, we will still feel alone.
To make matters "sucky-er," God has been hiding His face from me.
My initial response: "Oh poor me!!!" (It's a bummer right??)
My new response: "I LOVE THIS! PRAISE THE LORD!"
I need to feel alone in order that I may be united with Him. That I might understand Him and His desires, feel His thirst for souls, dive into the depths of His River!
Praise the Lord for that!
Wow Rachel! so true and it takes a lot to get to the point you have in embracing it and praising God despite your earthly circumstances! ...reminds me of Job a little bit :)
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